As i worship the Lord.. He reminded me abt my past journey with him... i can still rmber the day when i converted.. when joyce told me that i can actually talk to God as my fren... i start talking to him.. frm that day..i noe that i can rely on him.. i rmber the changes in my life..all these credit to God alone... before i noe God.. i used to write letter to myself.. whenever i am sad or angry..i will write a letter & den keep it.. i do that coz i have nobody to turn to..i tik that nobody can understand how i feel..i will keep it nicely & make sure no one will see it.. i rmber that day..that very day... i decided to throw the whole stack of letters away...(that was when i noe God liao) hehe... u noe y? coz i found someone whom i can talk to & he understands me :) there is not a need to write letter to myself le.. i rmber when i was sec one.... i had a strong will that i want to kill myself.. coz life is so stress for me..i often purposely cross e road when there are many cars... but my fren will always pull me back..haha! but now after knowing God.. i always say this ["my life rawks!!"] haha! its true..my life reali rawks.. i love my life & i want to treasure my life.. life with God is reali rawks.. dictionary words are not enough to decribe how wonderful to spend my life with God..yup.. slowly..frm a New b to a shepherd.. go thru alot.. speech that hurt me..sacastic attitudes frm sheep etc.. but God is with me :) after sometime..me & my sheep love each other :) haha! den after that frm a shepherd to CLa.. i rmber e days when i go to e NB hse nearly everyday & ask her go church.. haha! God gave me strength.. yup!! den became a CL.. God reali bless my cg alot.... there is once..i broke down & cry... haha! i met a prob & duno how.. after that a leader reminded me to seek God.. hmmmm... after seeking God & ask HIM... haha.. the prob is not a prob anymore! i have been a Cl for sometime.. gone thru alot with e cg...God is with me!!! He has brought me this far.. He nv fail to protect me..stay with me..giving me wisdom & strength which i need.. comfort me & assure me.. that is also the period of time when my frenz start to disagree with my committment to the church.. i am mentally tired.. thou no one wants to talk to me.. i am not lonely :) coz.. i noe that God is juz beside me..& i am not angry with my committments.. coz i noe i am not doing e wrong thing..so wat if my fren disagree?God agree can le..haha! But God is so faithful... he change e situation..now..my fren has stop ignoring me le.. hehe! now i am taking care of a unit le.. with 3 caregroups... God nv fail to guide me along... he guide my every steps.. he assure me that i am going to success soon.. very soon... i dun care wat negative things is happening.. i am not going to stop.. i am going to move on & trust Him.. yes.. my journey with him is not easy.. but one thing is that he is always there for me.. i am not scared :) he did alot of things for me in this journey.. when i need strength,he give me strength.. when i am down, he comforts me & assure me.. when i am lost, he guide me along.. when i am alone, i am still not lonely.. when everyone is against me, he supports me.. when i am unhappy, he listens to my cry.. (my journey with God : a changed life) worth investing my life in Him.. when u invest..u are not working alone... i am so thankful for everything he had done in my life.. He is e one who make my life so so so rawks....(joy in me coz i have Jesus in me) *hey i share this is not to list down the probz i faced.... but to remind myself how God stands by me when i am facing all these...* where got no ppl prob-free de rite? but its juz that thou i have prob juz like u all.... but i am not afraid coz i have Jesus with me :) do u have Jesus with u? if yes... dun worry..u will overcome all probz with victory!

---do u count your blessings? do u appreciate God for wat he has done in your life? (forget everything liao?)rmber e one who brough u frm wher u were to where u are now..---

haha.. if u wan to noe me more..can read this post ba.. lolx!! (hmmm.... actually i copied frm shirls blog..) hai yo.. better not let her see... if not i paiseh arhz.. hee..

fave gift- Things that i can use.. like.. Cap,ear rings,neckless,Bags,clothes,bottoms,shoe etc!! (definalty not display thingy..only rot at my hse..hehe!!)
fave outing- sun-tanning at sentosa with my frenz :) picnic at de wen's hse.. :)
fave games- Number games ba.. haha!
fave newfound choc- new found? hmmm...i love milk choc since young.. :)
fave eating place- Market
fave shopping place- Bugis & orchard
fave album- Haha... i download songs de..
fave piece of music- Duno how to appreciate music leh :(
fave non-fiction- wats e diff between non-fiction & fiction?
fave fiction- (look above)
fave Movie- as long as it belong to chick flicks.. i will love it :)
Fave actor- As long as he is good looking..i will like him..hahaha!

most emotional time- this year will be when my dad dun allow me to mit my mum..when my sheep backslide..& that nite..(between me & God..) dun tell u.. :P haha!
most physically n mentally tiring moment- Waiting for her frm noon till nite..
most shocking moment- when my fren is getting married & pregnant.. :) When i noe that i will take care of pris group..
most touching moment- When God comfort me.. :) :) when i was a Nb, i am broke & complain abt giving to God, Joyce top up my ez card, bought me a new slippers & wanted me to give to God :)
most painful moment- 2002 when i fell & broke my arm.. 2002 when my stomach pain & faint @ orchard haha! 2003 i had stomach ache at boat quey!
most memorable time- painful moments,1st m'sia camp in church..picnic at de wen's hse, touhing moments, 1st west chalet, seed retreat at my hse, din slp for e whole nite,after breakfast,when to unit cg..haha!
most embarassing yet funny moment- to many larz.... due to my character.. its impossible to list it all out! haha!

bought the most- clothes, pens, bottoms, contact lens, gifts
said the most- "watever" "i am tired" "thank God" "muz have faith ok?"
biggest struggle- muz study.. wake up early to go skool.. sit down to listen to principal talk..haha! exams..
received the most- cards :)
hang out the most- Orchard, Jurong point

breakthrough- Learn to smile even in tough times
things learnt- poker cards games.. haha! some leadership skills..self blaming is also satan's weapon..
Times miss most- De wen's Monday Cls meeting when i was still under him (west B) with Joyce,Jerel & pris.. :)
blessed moment- blessed to be in God's hand :)

haha.. hope u will not fall asleep :) i tik thats not all ba.... more! but my brain cells are too limited to tik.. lolx!!

Yuppeeeeee~!!! :) Happy valentine to everyone! yup.. valentine arh.. haha.. i dun reali appriciate this day before i noe God..but now i appriciate it..in the sense of its a friendship day for me :) *wInKz* haha.... talking abt valentine day.. i got a joke out of it.. (if u attend singles-minded-single u will noe ba...) haha... hmmm.... juz come back frm genting not long ago.. hehe.. many things to talk abt it.. as usual..i made alot if stupid mistakes (not again?) hahaha!! [[1st day: when my daddy & his gf were resting.. we went out to shop..i nv close e door properly!! den my dad told me that a malay guy went in to steal..but thanx God that my dad manage to caught hold & nth was lost.. *phew...* if not i will be the [qian gu jui ren] liao.. in another words..i will be the hot topic liao (of kana scold) haha!]] [[2nd day: went to theme park to play.. haha with aaron..stupid lor.. u noe wat? i went to play a water thingy game.. e boat got stuck in the middle of the steep slide.. twice leh! somemore very long... at 1st very scare..after that we start laughing le..diao~haha! created a joke of myself..[Aaron:"It must be u too heavy lar!! when we go back i muz tell everyone abt tis joke..esp to dewen..*evil laugh*"] haha!spend around RM9 on water.. haha.. (ahem..i drink alot) buy & buy a new bottle without realising that it can be re-fill.. *wow!!!!* went back to hotel... when i bath.. a glass fall & hit my head.. shartterd infront of me.. but the amazing thing is that i blue black also dun have!! haha! (God protected me!!) thanx God no blood..hehe!]] [[3rd day: get ready to go hm.. actually can make it to 2nd ss de leh.. but traffic jam!!! wow.... jam till 6 something.. *arhz!!* haha.. miss service le.. sobx..]] this trip to m'sia is kinda funny? haha.. in the theme park is e most funny part..esp when we are stuck & cause e rest of the boats to jam too...haha!! God reali protected me.. its so safe to be in his hand.. haha! so dun need to worry anything ba.. hehe!

---BLESSINGS---
`Jesus protected me~
`God engourage & comforted me during the adult ss~

---learn alot abt single-hood.. hehe.. being single doesnt mean being lonely..attached also cannot assure to happiness mah..rite? haha.. having a bf is not the utamate lor.. :) kingdom 1st..yup.. *there gonna be more to life den all these!!!* ya? juz wana encourage u guys that God is working in u.. be patience to wait for God's wonderful work :) u are actually progressing le.. (unless u spiritually not in tune with God la..) thank u Lord.....---

Hiyeee.....!! Now my mind is in a blank..duno wat to say...(nvm..later sure alot to say one..) haha! thats me!! u noe wat....tml i am going to genting le..haiz.. i reali dun wan to do..reali dun wan! u noe.. i gonna miss service this sat! i dun wan to miss service!How i wish genting is just beside nexus*hehehe* !!! oppz...how can i forget? [Happy New Year!!!!!] hehe.. u noe.. when i go back to my ah gong hse..they say that cannot sweep floor..wash clothes etc... hai ya.. all crapz larz.. haha! *no offence* by avoiding all these can reali bring the so-called good luck meh? if it is for real...how come my family still haben rich? haha! anyway if the so-called god love u all...even u sweep 100 times of floor.. u will still be bless ya? no need for all e rules.. :) anyway..these few days i had been reading the book of [[JOB]] in the bible.. He is a blameless guy.. he is one person in the bible whom i wana follow.. tell ya something... *ptss..dun fall asleep k?* hehe... rmber last year i lost my hp.. very ex de phone.. some more is my dad's first salary buy for me de.. (can imagine how sad am i?) haha.. i responded to e problem not in a godly way.. i cry & cry.. for many days..couldnt let go..blame God..etc.. until joyce told me e story abt JOB.. that very day..i stop crying & learn how to let go & of coz i am able to give thanks to God.. hehe.. as i read on the book of JOB.. he started to blame God..watever he say is very crap lor.. i read le also angry..haha! but in the end he realise that he shouldnt blame God & he trusted God :) u noe... when he is still blaming God..He said something like wherever he go..God is not there..i close my eyes..i tell God that i dun agree.. [Ting: " Father i noe that wherever i go.. u are there.. no matter where..may it be north south east west.. i noe u are there.. :) even if i choose not to move..u are also there.. thanks for being there for me.."] after i tell all these to HIM.. i feel very secured.. reali.. i noe wherever i go.. i am safe.. i realise something... when ppl decide to leave God, not long later.. they will seems very troubled.. den in their msn nick or friendster (watever larz!!!) will have something like this *sad..lonely..confuss..no one understand me...blah blah..* (its a common thing) is it a trade-mark for backsliders? haiz.. life w/o God is lidat de lorz... so pls dun leave God k? coz u are e one who need God..not God need u ya? i feel so sad to see the backsliders' nicks or profiles.. sometimes i feel very..(ah duno how to say) one word *stupid* thats all... to me.... u are nth but a stupid fool...!!!! NOTHING... haiz... i love them but i dun wan them to be stupid..got a good life dun choose.... (i will do my best to help u) *no offense* ppl... if u have tasted e love of God, u would understand y i say that ya? sad... so sad to see ppl living life like this..hey, this is not a life that it is meant to be! i cant imagine how sad God can be.. billions times more den me..confirm! their life no joy no nth... i understand something.. only Jesus can give u real Joy.. only Him alone... after reading my tag i am confussed.... by the so called *diam* haha!! duno he scolding me or wat... haha.. reminds me of something... b4 i noe God de life... thank God i am changed.. *think think* God indeed is a God of miracles..(did God create a miracle in u too?) anyway to me,ppl who think scolding ppl can statisfy themselves are childish :) mature ppl dun act this way ya? no point scolding me..coz it will make me dispise u more due to ur childishness :)will not entertain u(dun make me laugh at u ya?not nice worx)... hehe.. hmmmm....i will love u .. but God love u more ya?

---BLESSINGS---
`almost late for skool! when i reach there it was already the command liao.. phew... *i dun wan detension!!* (typical high skool student) *jency..did i spell wrongly again???* haha~
`I begin to understand God more liao :) ~
`the cg reunion lunch is great! thankiew GOD *love being in the family of God..!!!!!~

---Leaving God is e most dumb dumb way...coz leaving God = satan's success.... :( y serve someone who dun love u & wants u to die? ya? understand God's character more..thru e bible... :) oh ya.. west dudes & babes.. rmber to do e devotion k? thanks Shuz!! dun miss me when i am not with u all!! *muackz...!!!* ---